I haven't written in awhile, sorry. My daughter told me today that she doesn't want to have anything to do with the CATS program anymore. This really bums me out, because I felt like it would help to open doors for her as she gets on in life. But being only 9 years old, friends are more important, and one day away from them to pursue more acedemic pursuits is just to much for her to handle.
I don't get it! She doesn't really get along with her classmates. All I ever here about is how she is not going to talk to so and so any more....
This is just to depressing!
Thursday, May 08, 2003
Monday, March 10, 2003
I Love My Wife!
You know, I was in such a hury to get an entry in and on to other things that I totally missed on getting it in here how much I love my wife, and what a total ASS I can be most of the time.
My Wife does so much to keep our family together. We made an agreement to take turns with the dishes, etc. We were going to establish a regimen. She can stick to that stuff, but it gets hard for me. We failed utterly in trying to establish any since of duty in our daughter. Every time we ask her to do something, we get the "You ask me to do everything, always!" tantrum. Our son is starting to get the defiant attitude of his sister down too.
I want to have us all going back to church, getting daily prayer into our lives. I want to start reciting the Rosary every day. Funny how things change when you "grow up" and start a family of your own. If only there was a way to remain a kid forever :)
Anyway, the Wife does so much around here, and we don't. We don't even say thank you. I take my wife for granted and I am ashamed of it. How do I change that. I love my wife. THANK YOU! But quit your job and find one where you can work days!!! If only it were that easy.
I know that she has her wants and desires. But she manages to put us first. She even asks me if she can buy underware and stuff for herself! Man that makes me feel like scum. Me? I'm always thinking about what I can buy for myself next. Why is life like that? All guys are like that. Always thinking about themselves. Where women are always putting others before themselves. Men are just genetically born to be pigs. It's in our nature to carve notches in our belts. It all about territory. It's our animalistic nature. But God gave us the minds to control that part of ourselves. Some are better at it than others.
I want my Wife to have the things that she wants. I want those things too. I am just amazed by her at times. I know that she thinks I only ever think about myself. I really doubt that she stops to think that I ever feel this way. But there are times when all I can do is to watch her and be amazed...ashamed at myself. I love you my Wife! I know I say that everyday. But I love you. Did I say that I love you!
My Wife does so much to keep our family together. We made an agreement to take turns with the dishes, etc. We were going to establish a regimen. She can stick to that stuff, but it gets hard for me. We failed utterly in trying to establish any since of duty in our daughter. Every time we ask her to do something, we get the "You ask me to do everything, always!" tantrum. Our son is starting to get the defiant attitude of his sister down too.
I want to have us all going back to church, getting daily prayer into our lives. I want to start reciting the Rosary every day. Funny how things change when you "grow up" and start a family of your own. If only there was a way to remain a kid forever :)
Anyway, the Wife does so much around here, and we don't. We don't even say thank you. I take my wife for granted and I am ashamed of it. How do I change that. I love my wife. THANK YOU! But quit your job and find one where you can work days!!! If only it were that easy.
I know that she has her wants and desires. But she manages to put us first. She even asks me if she can buy underware and stuff for herself! Man that makes me feel like scum. Me? I'm always thinking about what I can buy for myself next. Why is life like that? All guys are like that. Always thinking about themselves. Where women are always putting others before themselves. Men are just genetically born to be pigs. It's in our nature to carve notches in our belts. It all about territory. It's our animalistic nature. But God gave us the minds to control that part of ourselves. Some are better at it than others.
I want my Wife to have the things that she wants. I want those things too. I am just amazed by her at times. I know that she thinks I only ever think about myself. I really doubt that she stops to think that I ever feel this way. But there are times when all I can do is to watch her and be amazed...ashamed at myself. I love you my Wife! I know I say that everyday. But I love you. Did I say that I love you!
Independence Day
Today? Busy. Did we get any ME time today? Of course not. How can they expect me to be a graphic artist and get all my new Sys Admin duties done as well? We hired two new Sales Reps, and a new Copy Center Tech. All of them need email addresses. One sales rep will be working out of her house, so I need to configure the network appropriately and punch holes in the firewall to allow her to use some of our software tools from home. Not to concerned about the firewall issue as that is all propriatary, and risk is slim. But where do I find the time? They all claim that they are computer illiterate, but already one has changed the background on her desktop of the new computer we bought for her. Funny that. I have to type up instructions on how to add a company email account to a home computer, but they know enough to change background images. Sorry, ranting again.
I have a new YMCA program guide to design. An older Y wants to compete with the new Y on the NW side, and since they cannot do it by having a new state-of-the-art facility, they want a kick butt program guide. The catch is, I only have two days to come of with an award winning design and set of proofs. Maybe if I had not had to re-format the hard drives and re-install software on a Mac and PC this weekend, I could have spent my Sunday working on that. As it was, I had to rush right out at 2pm today to get to the Red Cross. This was my first day donating Platelets and Plasma. I am a veteran blood donor, but I was still nervous. It went pretty smooth though. I got to watch Independence Day which was cool. Though it was still pretty difficult to sit still for almost 2 hours. I couldn't even move to scratch itches. The Nurses told me to let them know if any itches needed attention. NOT! I'll suffer through it before I ask someone to scratch an itch for me.
This was also the day of Lori's memorial service. It started at 5pm and I was just barely getting out of the Red Cross. I didn't want to be a latecomer though, so I decided not to go. This is four people, close to me in one way or another, that have died in as many years. I hope Mark and the kids are holding up okay. This is why a donate blood now. I have known three people personally now, who have had cancer and died from it. I think that cancer sucks!
I know tomorrow is going to be busy, and I better get to updating and balancing our checkbook. It is getting late, and I am pretty sleepy already.
I have a new YMCA program guide to design. An older Y wants to compete with the new Y on the NW side, and since they cannot do it by having a new state-of-the-art facility, they want a kick butt program guide. The catch is, I only have two days to come of with an award winning design and set of proofs. Maybe if I had not had to re-format the hard drives and re-install software on a Mac and PC this weekend, I could have spent my Sunday working on that. As it was, I had to rush right out at 2pm today to get to the Red Cross. This was my first day donating Platelets and Plasma. I am a veteran blood donor, but I was still nervous. It went pretty smooth though. I got to watch Independence Day which was cool. Though it was still pretty difficult to sit still for almost 2 hours. I couldn't even move to scratch itches. The Nurses told me to let them know if any itches needed attention. NOT! I'll suffer through it before I ask someone to scratch an itch for me.
This was also the day of Lori's memorial service. It started at 5pm and I was just barely getting out of the Red Cross. I didn't want to be a latecomer though, so I decided not to go. This is four people, close to me in one way or another, that have died in as many years. I hope Mark and the kids are holding up okay. This is why a donate blood now. I have known three people personally now, who have had cancer and died from it. I think that cancer sucks!
I know tomorrow is going to be busy, and I better get to updating and balancing our checkbook. It is getting late, and I am pretty sleepy already.
Sunday, March 09, 2003
The Living Dead
Okay, so if yesterday sucked...today sucks even more! I have to go into work sometime today. I will be re-installing software onto a few co-workers machines. This is really the only time I can do it, as we are just plain to busy to do it during the week. I guess thats part of being a Sys Admin. It wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that we went to a double feature movie last night, "Old School" and "Daredevil". They were cool. Thats the first drive-in that I have been to in like 10 years or so. We didn't get home until 2 a.m., and like always, the kids are up bright and early and arguing at 7 a.m.!!
Amaizingmail.com called the owner yesterday to advise him that they could not connect to the FTP server. Like that is automatically our problem. So the owner called me. This is the first time ever, since I set up all the servers at work, that I have gotten a call on the weekend to fix something. This happened just before I had to have my daughter to her Girl Scout cookie booth. I told the owner that I had to drop her off, and that I would scope it out as soon as I got back.
When I got home, I logged into the server, and everything appeared just fine. I ran a few tests and they all passed with flying colors. I called the owner back to let him know that the problem must be with their server. He was very appreciative and said that he would call them back to let them know. I really feel that Amazingmail.com is just to arrogant and assuming, that they feel like when they snap their fingers, they want us to "jump to it". I really hate people/companies that are that way. They are a great company, but with them, it is always someone elses fault that something went wrong first. It seems that they never feel like maybe they are the ones experiencing the problem. Like yesterday.
I was wanting to really get some PHP learning in today, but I don't think that is going to happen. Alyssa is already whining about making breakfast, and wanting to watch her movies, thereby antagonizing her brother, and upsetting her mom. I really have come to hate Sundays. Jodi is always in a bad mood on these days. I love my kids, but I am starting to really resent the termoil that they cause in our family. I really hate that Jodi doesn't seem to want to do anything about her schedule so that she can work a normal schedule like the rest of us. She would certainly get more sleep than she does now. We would spend more time together too, and get to do more as a family. And I feel that this would reduce a lot of the stress in our family. But she doesn't really talk to me about it, and all the hooks I throw out there to talk about it never seem to catch anything.
Tomorrow it starts all over....
Amaizingmail.com called the owner yesterday to advise him that they could not connect to the FTP server. Like that is automatically our problem. So the owner called me. This is the first time ever, since I set up all the servers at work, that I have gotten a call on the weekend to fix something. This happened just before I had to have my daughter to her Girl Scout cookie booth. I told the owner that I had to drop her off, and that I would scope it out as soon as I got back.
When I got home, I logged into the server, and everything appeared just fine. I ran a few tests and they all passed with flying colors. I called the owner back to let him know that the problem must be with their server. He was very appreciative and said that he would call them back to let them know. I really feel that Amazingmail.com is just to arrogant and assuming, that they feel like when they snap their fingers, they want us to "jump to it". I really hate people/companies that are that way. They are a great company, but with them, it is always someone elses fault that something went wrong first. It seems that they never feel like maybe they are the ones experiencing the problem. Like yesterday.
I was wanting to really get some PHP learning in today, but I don't think that is going to happen. Alyssa is already whining about making breakfast, and wanting to watch her movies, thereby antagonizing her brother, and upsetting her mom. I really have come to hate Sundays. Jodi is always in a bad mood on these days. I love my kids, but I am starting to really resent the termoil that they cause in our family. I really hate that Jodi doesn't seem to want to do anything about her schedule so that she can work a normal schedule like the rest of us. She would certainly get more sleep than she does now. We would spend more time together too, and get to do more as a family. And I feel that this would reduce a lot of the stress in our family. But she doesn't really talk to me about it, and all the hooks I throw out there to talk about it never seem to catch anything.
Tomorrow it starts all over....
Saturday, March 08, 2003
Does Poly want a cookie?
Today sucks! After a long week at work, I have to get up early this morning to take the Wife to work. It really sucks being back down to one vehicle. And that is a whole other issue.
We let my Aunt and Uncle use the car, and he being a mechanic and all, was supposed to take care of it. Not only did he not take care of it, but put a lot more mileage on it than we would have expected. So the question is...what was he using the car for while we were all at work. It certainly was not to look for work, as evidenced by the fact that we found him at a casino one time. My poor Aunt, constantly being lied to by this man. I don't know what happened to him, But I am overjoyed that she is trying to pick herself up from all of this. They're marriage is over, he's gone. My car is toast! It is a good thing we just bought the van.... But it sucks that we are back down to having to run each other around.
Anyway, after a long week I was ready for the weekend. I was rudely reminded that I had promised to have my daughter at her cookie booth today, so that meant that I had to run the Wife up to work so that I could have the Van. I was hoping to read my PHP books today. I really want to get more fluent with scripting and web design, that with my Sys Admin and networking skills makes me feel that I could start my own total Graphic/Web design and Computer Consultant/Network Systems Administrator. You know, make my own hours, sign my own paychecks!
Well, that's were I am at today. Slowly wiping the sleep from my eyes. My daughter is getting ready for her Girl Scouts cookie booth.
I must find some time for prayer later today and say some words for Mark and his Children. He lost his wife this past Tuesday. She was just diagnosed with breast cancer several months ago, and had just finished her Chemotherapy. They were all confident that it was over, then she woke up sick one day and that was it. She left this world that day. They had been separated for a time, but then got back together. Thankfully they got to spend her last days together. What over them Lord.
We let my Aunt and Uncle use the car, and he being a mechanic and all, was supposed to take care of it. Not only did he not take care of it, but put a lot more mileage on it than we would have expected. So the question is...what was he using the car for while we were all at work. It certainly was not to look for work, as evidenced by the fact that we found him at a casino one time. My poor Aunt, constantly being lied to by this man. I don't know what happened to him, But I am overjoyed that she is trying to pick herself up from all of this. They're marriage is over, he's gone. My car is toast! It is a good thing we just bought the van.... But it sucks that we are back down to having to run each other around.
Anyway, after a long week I was ready for the weekend. I was rudely reminded that I had promised to have my daughter at her cookie booth today, so that meant that I had to run the Wife up to work so that I could have the Van. I was hoping to read my PHP books today. I really want to get more fluent with scripting and web design, that with my Sys Admin and networking skills makes me feel that I could start my own total Graphic/Web design and Computer Consultant/Network Systems Administrator. You know, make my own hours, sign my own paychecks!
Well, that's were I am at today. Slowly wiping the sleep from my eyes. My daughter is getting ready for her Girl Scouts cookie booth.
I must find some time for prayer later today and say some words for Mark and his Children. He lost his wife this past Tuesday. She was just diagnosed with breast cancer several months ago, and had just finished her Chemotherapy. They were all confident that it was over, then she woke up sick one day and that was it. She left this world that day. They had been separated for a time, but then got back together. Thankfully they got to spend her last days together. What over them Lord.
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